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Bring on the hormones

May 11th, 2010 · 3 Comments · Uncategorized

I think I mentioned that I recently had a hormone panel done and after draining 18 quarts of blood from me, they determined that I don’t have any.  No really.  I got nothing.  I’ve totally bottomed out in the hormone department and that’s makes mama not happy.  And you know the saying, “If mama aint happy, nobody’s happy.” 

I headed to the compounding pharmacy in Wichita and after meeting with the pharmacist for a consultation the rushed an order through for me so I could have it before I left for Kansas City.  I decided to start with the troche method of delivery – basically a little chicklet-sized dissolving cube that I put between my cheek and gum then let dissolve over the next 45 minutes or so.  It’s chocolate and vanilla flavored – doesn’t taste bad at all. 

I don’t think last week was a good indication of how they were affecting me because I was under considerable stress during all day long classes put on by the government.  Yes, just imagine the happy happy joy joy long days of that!  At any rate, I do believe those babies are kicking in and it’s creating a whole new set of problems, namely, I feel  again.  After sinking into depression over the winter and doing everything I could to just get through a day, I’ve forgotten what it’s like to feel again and I do mean everything.  Irritation, anger, happiness, and all other ranges of emotions.  I find myself feeling like my head is spinning and then realizing, “Oh my gosh, I’m angry about that!”  And then, because I have psychotic tendencies, I actually think how wonderful it is to even have the energy to feel angry. 

Welcome to my world.  Scary, isn’t it?

I do think they’re helping and I’m looking forward to answering the long questionnaire for my four week checkup then comparing it to the one I filled out when I first made the appointment.  Although I think it would be almost more interesting to have Ed fill it out based on my behaviors! LOL

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